So I was already nervous.
Had a vaginal scan as I did the previous times... I have a large gestational sac but it's empty.
I am 100% on dates.
I had my positive pregnancy test over 5weeks ago. So in all that time there should be a very visible baby there.
The only thing the doctor could find was a tiny dot attached to the sac. She's given me a week to see if the 'dot' develops into a baby.
Three babies lost in under a year.
The first miscarriage at 9wks, I started bleeding and bleeding and got rushed to hospital.
The second time I got to almost 12wks and started spotting very very slightly and found out I had lost the baby again at 9wks.
I'm so scared it's happening again. At just over 9wks again too!
I haven't told my OH yet because we've been waiting for an early scan for weeks and he's mad enough at the hospital because I rung up this morning and it turns out they had lost the referral! So I have an apt in the morning anyway.
If I told him tonight he'd hit the roof and storm me down to the hospital screaming n shouting which really wouldn't help.
I'm so scared I can't lose another one!
Dreading the scan now....
This was over a month ago and still no word from the midwives and no early scan!
I'm 10wks now it won't b an early scan before long!
Iv rung up the surgery twice and both times I get the answer (your apt is on it's way).
Very infuriating. Especially as both previous times I lost the baby at 9wks. By the time I get this scan it may be too late.
I'm pulling my hair out here. Anyone else had issues like this?
Think it was over two months ago the last time.
And it's not because I'm pregnant because it's been dwindling away for months and months.
I have a high sex drive. I thought he did too, especially as he used to boast about all his numerous ex partners and how much of an awesome lover he was. But it's not the case with me, iv never felt so unwanted and unattractive in all my life!
I beg him for it daily, if I go down on him to get things started it just ends up in a blowjob for him!!!
I bought £65 worth of sex toys and lingerie. None of which have been used. Even bed restraints that have never been touched!!
I put the lingerie on.... His response (that's nice, where'd u get that)? And then he rolled over n went to sleep!!!!
I'm so frustrated and iv been trying so hard!! What would u do??
And they've passed it on to me. Lucky me!!!
Im feeling rougher than rough, really high temp, shivers and vomiting. My whole body feels as if my bones have toothache.
I can deal with the sickness I'm just worried about my temperature.
Will it harm the baby?
I'm 10wks and have already suffered two miscarriages.
I lost a baby last October at about 9wks 5days and had a d&c.
This time at 11wk 3days I had light spotting so they gave me an early scan. Turns out I lost the baby at about 9wks again.
I chose to be left alone, go home and let it happen naturally.
I had very light spotting to begin with. Then about a week after my scan I started getting excruciating cramping. It then turned into full blown contractions. (Iv had two babies, I know what a contraction feels like). I was on my own on all fours on my bed screaming. I txt my OH to come home. I felt a big pop and a load of clots came out of me. He got home n rushed me to hospital. On the way I bled heavily. Bled through all my clothes, all over casualty seats and flooded the pads they put under me. I was terrified.
They pumped me full of fluids and gave me painkillers. Then they gave me a pelvic exam to see what was goin on. Turns out the baby and clots were stuck inside me and my body was contracting trying to flush it out. I then had the pleasure of a 10inch forceps inside me while he dragged out the contents of my womb. So painful.
After a thinking it was all over I had another scan to confirm my womb was clear. Turns out there was still a lot in there!!! They told me I needed surgery to remove it. So I ended up having a d&c after all.
Total nightmare losing a baby anyway. But all this was really a kick in the teeth. After 2days in hospital, a lot of blood loss, pain and being terrified. I really wish I'd had a d&c to begin with.
Let alone the fact we have no money. Or the fact that He NEVER takes me out or even asks me. Or the fact that he has work tomorrow. His friend is a druggie and always gets him drunk off his face and into fights. I BEG him not to go. He's says I'm being horrible and I don't trust him (I don't).
I told him if he goes dont bother coming home, it's over. He went anyway. And he took my car tax money to pay for his drinks.
So me & the kids have packed bags and iv left this on the kitchen top.
Needless to say. Im In a state.