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warning you know this is bitter....having some rage at the moment triggered due to hearing about a friend preg with @3. I have nothing uplifting or even remotely pleasant to say. I just need to vent please. I can't vent to my husband cause it rips his heart apart since he feels like its his fault we r infertility. so here goes....

Having a moment..hating a certain category of people at this moment. Must be so freakin nice to be them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes...talking about those group of people known as fertile.

don't call your preg a miracle when you have no real clue what a real preg. miracle is. yes life is a miracle....its a miracle anyone gets preg once you know what really goes into it...but yet there are the majority of people that beat the seemingly high odds and do continually and easily get preg.

and I'm sorry...I really am....I remember what it was when we verrry first started ttc and how anxious and naive I was. I do. but now about 8 years later I can't stand it anymore...the definition of infertility is having unprotected sex for a year and not getting preg. isn't it?? so if it hasn't even been a year...you are NOT infertile...even if you haven't been actively ttc. and even if it has been a year...the odds are in your favor as well....the majority of people get preg within a year....and of those....the majority that doesn't will all still most likely get preg within 6-12 months after that.

sorry...just feeling alone....absolutely and utterly hopeless....and yeah bitter if you hadn't noticed.

even those first couple years of ttc and seeing specialists...the urologist said that yes...there are those stories you hear about people that were told they have almost no chance of naturally conceiving and yet they defy the odds and become preg. and it seems like just about everyone knows of someone that has a happy ending like that....but in reality they are rare.

there are always those stories of the couple that finally gave up and totally stopped trying and then boom...they get preg (for the record we really gave up years ago)....or the ones that adopt or just start looking into adoption and then bam...they get preg. but really is that very often?

my sister in law has graves disease (thyroid) and they told her she would have a hard time conceiving after that....but they weren't even trying and got #3. mother in law acted like it was a miracle. please....they said she may have problems ttc....they didn't say they only had a 2% chance without serious medical intervention. and we had to hear them whine and complain for 9 months about how this last one better be a boy and how unlucky they were that they had 3 girls. really!!???? and they even went so far as to say I'd the 3rd one was a girl that they'd let is have the baby. ha ha....so funny....NOT!!! yeah they owe us a kid still lol.

ugh. sorry....just had to get it out. get so tired of pasting on the fake smile. honestly it had been much much better these last few years and we were so at peace. truly. but these last 2...almost 3 years of struggles...and the quickly approaching 8 year mark of "ttc" and the need for a change in anti depressants...has brought a lot to the surface.

sorry to bring anyone else down in my major ugly funk. :(

warning you know this is bitter....having some rage at the moment triggered due to hearing about a friend preg with @3. I have nothing uplifting or even remotely pleasant to say. I just need to vent please. I can't vent to my husband cause it rips his heart apart since he feels like its his fault we r infertility. so here goes....

Having a moment..hating a certain category of people at this moment. Must be so freakin nice to be them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes...talking about those group of people known as fertile.

don't call your preg a miracle when you have no real clue what a real preg. miracle is. yes life is a miracle....its a miracle anyone gets preg once you know what really goes into it...but yet there are the majority of people that beat the seemingly high odds and do continually and easily get preg.

and I'm sorry...I really am....I remember what it was when we verrry first started ttc and how anxious and naive I was. I do. but now about 8 years later I can't stand it anymore...the definition of infertility is having unprotected sex for a year and not getting preg. isn't it?? so if it hasn't even been a year...you are NOT infertile...even if you haven't been actively ttc. and even if it has been a year...the odds are in your favor as well....the majority of people get preg within a year....and of those....the majority that doesn't will all still most likely get preg within 6-12 months after that.

sorry...just feeling alone....absolutely and utterly hopeless....and yeah bitter if you hadn't noticed.

even those first couple years of ttc and seeing specialists...the urologist said that yes...there are those stories you hear about people that were told they have almost no chance of naturally conceiving and yet they defy the odds and become preg. and it seems like just about everyone knows of someone that has a happy ending like that....but in reality they are rare.

there are always those stories of the couple that finally gave up and totally stopped trying and then boom...they get preg (for the record we really gave up years ago)....or the ones that adopt or just start looking into adoption and then bam...they get preg. but really is that very often?

my sister in law has graves disease (thyroid) and they told her she would have a hard time conceiving after that....but they weren't even trying and got #3. mother in law acted like it was a miracle. please....they said she may have problems ttc....they didn't say they only had a 2% chance without serious medical intervention. and we had to hear them whine and complain for 9 months about how this last one better be a boy and how unlucky they were that they had 3 girls. really!!???? and they even went so far as to say I'd the 3rd one was a girl that they'd let is have the baby. ha ha....so funny....NOT!!! yeah they owe us a kid still lol.

ugh. sorry....just had to get it out. get so tired of pasting on the fake smile. honestly it had been much much better these last few years and we were so at peace. truly. but these last 2...almost 3 years of struggles...and the quickly approaching 8 year mark of "ttc" and the need for a change in anti depressants...has brought a lot to the surface.

sorry to bring anyone else down in my major ugly funk. :(

the reason i am posting here is i need some help, my best friend and her husband(who is deployed right now) just found out that it is going to be hard for them to conceive, they tried when he was home on R&R but no luck....

so here is the hard part she has told me that she loves being included in how im doing in my pregnancy. but i see how much it kills her! this baby was a big surprise, my husband and i were on the verge of devorice and now were really strong we are getting better about fighting and trying to talk things out! but i just dont know what to do should i just include her even though i see how much it kills her because she says it hurts her when i dont include her....i just dont know what to do... please input would be great, this is killing me because she is my best friend but i feel like in a way without meaning to im rubbing it in her face.....HELP!!!!!!

the reason i am posting here is i need some help, my best friend and her husband(who is deployed right now) just found out that it is going to be hard for them to conceive, they tried when he was home on R&R but no luck....

so here is the hard part she has told me that she loves being included in how im doing in my pregnancy. but i see how much it kills her! this baby was a big surprise, my husband and i were on the verge of devorice and now were really strong we are getting better about fighting and trying to talk things out! but i just dont know what to do should i just include her even though i see how much it kills her because she says it hurts her when i dont include her....i just dont know what to do... please input would be great, this is killing me because she is my best friend but i feel like in a way without meaning to im rubbing it in her face.....HELP!!!!!!

the reason i am posting here is i need some help, my best friend and her husband(who is deployed right now) just found out that it is going to be hard for them to conceive, they tried when he was home on R&R but no luck....

so here is the hard part she has told me that she loves being included in how im doing in my pregnancy. but i see how much it kills her! this baby was a big surprise, my husband and i were on the verge of devorice and now were really strong we are getting better about fighting and trying to talk things out! but i just dont know what to do should i just include her even though i see how much it kills her because she says it hurts her when i dont include her....i just dont know what to do... please input would be great, this is killing me because she is my best friend but i feel like in a way without meaning to im rubbing it in her face.....HELP!!!!!!

Sorry just needed to tell someone. My little sister who is 19 has just found out she is pregnant today!! she is 40 weeks 5 days, going in to have a baby boy on Monday. She didn't even know she was pregnant. I don't know how to feel I have been trying for a year!

I just felt the need to post this. I've made many mistakes in life, but God has forgiven me for them all. So whenever you're reminded of your downfalls, that's Satan. God has forgiven you,he has forgotten your sins. So don't beat yourself up over your short comings. My biggest desire other than serving God, is to be pregnant. Everything happens for a reason! All last month I claimed my pregnancy but turned out not to b pregnant. This month I wasn't even ttc, an I claim it has happened. My trust and faith lays in gods hands. So everyone I just came to broadcast, that I CLAIM THIS MONTH IS THE MONTH I'LL GET MY BFP AND THAT I HAVE CONCEIVED MY BABY GIRL! AN I WILL GIVE BIRTH TO A HEALTHY, GOD FEARING, SMART, AND BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL IN THE NEXT 9 .MONTHS!!!!! I'm praying that every woman that post up here, and believes in Gods mighty power, will conceive or have conceived this month, and will give birth to healthy babies!!!

I just felt the need to post this. I've made many mistakes in life, but God has forgiven me for them all. So whenever you're reminded of your downfalls, that's Satan. God has forgiven you,he has forgotten your sins. So don't beat yourself up over your short comings. My biggest desire other than serving God, is to be pregnant. Everything happens for a reason! All last month I claimed my pregnancy but turned out not to b pregnant. This month I wasn't even ttc, an I claim it has happened. My trust and faith lays in gods hands. So everyone I just came to broadcast, that I CLAIM THIS MONTH IS THE MONTH I'LL GET MY BFP AND THAT I HAVE CONCEIVED MY BABY GIRL! AN I WILL GIVE BIRTH TO A HEALTHY, GOD FEARING, SMART, AND BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL IN THE NEXT 9 .MONTHS!!!!! I'm praying that every woman that post up here, and believes in Gods mighty power, will conceive or have conceived this month, and will give birth to healthy babies!!!

I just got off the phone with our insurance and she said we have coverage for everything except ivf but we $5000 deductible and once it's higher than that than they pay 80%. I dont know how much iui is but we cant pay $5000+ on ttc alone. My heart dropped as soon as she said it. I almost started crying while I was on the phone with her.... :( I definitely did NOT expect to hear that...what a bummer!!! Lord help us...

Just wanted to get an idea of what iui cost. I'm trying to find out but Dr are giving me the run around with costs. I know it can vary but I want a range...